Kesha seems to be doing so much better since going to rehab late last year. She’s faced her problems head-on and come out with a healthier attitude, and she’s a lot happier for it. In her new interview with Teen Vogue, she opened up about how she came to her breaking point and how her attitude has changed since.
Over the last five years, music’s good-time gal has written and performed buoyant (and sometimes raunchy) YOLO-themed soundtracks fit for high school ragers and wedding reception sing-alongs without skipping a beat. Yet the singer knew she needed to take a break and face a serious personal problem. “Let’s just get the elephant out of the room,” she says, pausing. “My eating disorder is something I’ve been struggling with for a while. People will make up stories, but I went to rehab for an eating disorder—nothing more and nothing less.” In January, Kesha entered Timberline Knolls, a Chicago-area women’s inpatient facility, subsequently canceling her spring tour. “Making my last record, Warrior, was a pretty miserable process, and it wore my spirit down. I was fighting like hell to keep my whole irreverent essence and everything raw and visceral that I stand for in it, but in the end I was promoting something that wasn’t the animal I wanted it to be. I decided to face my problem head-on.”
Battling inner demons is hard for anyone, but when your job is to be a poster child of kickass confidence, continually belting out empowering, self-penned lyrics only intensifies the wake-up call. “My whole message is to love who you are and accept all your beautiful imperfections. When I felt I was slipping into unloving territory with myself, I knew I had to listen to my own advice and correct it,” Kesha explains as we turn in unison onto our stomachs, a sprinkler hissing faintly in the distance. “I have a public persona where I need to be fun all the time, and I refuse to be a hypocrite. I felt I needed to get help, not only for myself but also for my fans. My worst fear in life is to be fake.”
She also shared her approach to fashion in the past. Her look was sometimes… pretty rough, which was intentional, as she was very against being “pretty” at that time.
“I remember thinking, I don’t want to be pretty,” Kesha recalled. “Don’t call me pretty.” The singer shared how even before rehab, she would do things to refute the prettiness claims. “It was almost offensive,” she shared, “I would put on more eyeliner or draw things down my face.”
The star, who changed her Twitter handle from Ke$hasux to Kesharose after completing her stint, said the “defining moment [developed] about six months ago” after a breakup. “I decided that maybe I do want to try to be pretty,” she said. “I want to just try.”
Aw, bless. I actually really like Kesha – it’s good to see her doing better.
June 26, 2014 at 9:00 am by Jennifer
Kesha exited rehab earlier this month and was feeling a lot healthier. She also dropped the $ from her name… but that’s not all she dropped. In fact, she’s also apparently got rid of all the negative things and people she used to be surrounded with. Is that code for “I got out of my record deal with Dr. Luke“? Who can say?
“She has eliminated all of the negative people and influences in her life,” a friend of the pop star tells PEOPLE. “She has surrounded herself with only supportive and loving friends and family.”
Another source admits the “Timber” singer has been “lying low” but is in a “really good place” as she settles into making Los Angeles her new home following her stint in a Chicago-based rehab center where she sought treatment alongside her mother, Pebe Sebert.
“Kesha is back to practicing self-love and is at peace with herself,” adds the friend. “She’s found her inner strength and focus again.”
Good for Kesha! However, I have to admit… this whole thing probably spells absolute disaster for her, career-wise. Of course, her personal health is WAY more important than fame, just saying… I don’t think we’ll be hearing any more hits from her anytime soon.
March 30, 2014 at 6:30 am by Jennifer
The last we heard from Ke$ha, she’d checked into a facility to receive treatment for a raging eating disorder that apparently nearly killed her and was all Dr. Luke’s fault. However, after having spent some real time working out her issues, she’s been released from rehab and is ready for a comeback!
She took to Twitter, as you do the first time you have a spare minute in life, to thank her fans for their support and to post a photo of herself (I think?) with red hair, looking out of a plane window:
I can’t wait to see what she does next, or if she’ll finally get let out of the shitty record contract she was stuck in before so she can start making the kind of music she wants to make. If it’s the latter, things could go either way, depending on what direction she takes, but either way, I hope she finds some peace.
March 7, 2014 at 10:30 am by Jennifer
Ke$ha has been doing some time in a rehab facility for her eating disorder which was apparently all Dr. Luke’s fault – not that I mean to make light of the situation. In any case, after getting near deathly ill with the condition, she’s now getting herself together and plans to be back in the swing of making music really soon.
How do we know this? Well, first she had a friend tweet on her behalf and now she’s got access to Twitter from inside rehab, so at least her fans are kept up to date with what’s been happening:
I’m sure her fans are super grateful that she’s keeping them apprised, but it’s been like, two weeks. Don’t you think she should be focused a bit more on rehab and slightly less on social networking? I mean, I hate to give Ke$ha a hard time because it’s clear she’s been through a lot, but I feel like Twitter should be the last of her focus right now.
In any case, I suppose it’s nice to hear that she’s doing so well and getting better every day.
January 23, 2014 at 11:30 am by Jennifer
Ke$ha is currently in rehab for an eating disorder which apparently came into being after Dr. Luke compared her to a refrigerator. I’m not sure how true any of that is, or if it even matters, but the bottom line is that Ke$ha was anorexic and bulimic and needed help, so she’s getting it. Her mother, Pebe Sebert, apparently also checked into rehab at the same facility, though I’m not quite sure why (and it doesn’t really matter in the context of this story).
Pebe has been chatting away to the press about Ke$ha’s condition and has revealed that her daughter nearly died as a result of being bullied about her weight.
“I’ve watched my beautiful, self-confident, brilliant daughter be berated and ridiculed for her looks and weight to the point that she almost died,” Sebert says.
“The doctors told me her blood pressure and sodium levels were so low, they’d never seen it that low except with someone who’d had a heart attack or stroke. They said it was a miracle she hadn’t already dropped dead on stage.”
Damn, that’s crazy – and really sad, too. Pebe also said that Ke$ha has had body issues since she was in middle school but they got progressively worse once she signed her record deal at 18 and began working with former manager David Sonenberg.
“One time on a conference call, Sonenberg was screaming, “You need to lose weight! I don’t care what you do … take drugs, not eat, stick your finger down your throat!” Sebert tells PEOPLE.
“Ke$ha was just weeping. She drove around afterward thinking about killing herself.” (Sonenberg denied any of the allegations.)
And apparently Dr. Luke, the pop hitmaker who has written huge songs for Miley Cyrus, Katy Perry and Jessie J, was just as bad.
“He has just always been very disrespectful about her weight. “He’d say it in certain ways, like ‘Why don’t you try running?’ She was doing everything and not getting thin fast enough, and that’s when she first became bulimic.”
Ugh, what the fuck? Sure, some of this might be exaggerated, but I have a feeling it’s not. Sure, some women manage to stand up to the pressure to be a size 0 in the business, but many don’t because they want to achieve success in their field so badly and feel like it’s “part of their job” to look the part. What a shame – I hope Ke$ha gets better soon, but unfortunately, battles like that tend to stick with you throughout your life.
January 20, 2014 at 3:30 pm by Jennifer
Ke$ha is telling friends her eating disorder was caused by her very own music producer Dr. Luke — claiming he bashed her weight and even called her a big, fat refrigerator … TMZ has learned.
Sources directly connected to Ke$ha tell us … it all started when the singer’s “Get Sleazy” tour ended in 2011. She says Luke — who signed Ke$ha to a deal at age 18 — started ragging on her over the extra lbs she had gained in her downtime.
Ke$ha says Luke — a huge producer who has worked with Miley Cyrus and Rihanna — began calling Ke$ha fat and urged her management team to do something about it.
Our sources say Ke$ha complained … during a music video shoot in 2012 Luke told her she “looks like a f-cking refrigerator” … and the singer was profoundly affected by it.
“A f-cking refrigerator”?? What a f-cking asshole!!!!
Here’s what Ke$ha looked like in 2011:
Wow, what a fridge.
F-ck that guy.
And refrigerators are awesome.