Today's Evil Beet Gossip



“They call it “code 5150,” that means “psycho,” legally, fuckin bat-shit, certifiably. I’m outta my mind, believe-you-me. How’d I get this way? How can this be? It’s gotten so bad there’s nothing left of me.” -Steve-O

Those words were written during a “low.” Before the day when Johnny Knoxville, Jeff Tremaine, Big Regg, Swizz, Rick Kosick, Dimitry Elyaschevich, Cordell Mansfield, and Trip Taylor came to my home and, physcially, forced me into the hospital (where I was placed on a 5150 “hold”), I had thought of “bipolar” as a “good” thing. I rationally deduced that, with our time in this life being so limited, it was productive to stick to nothing but extremely high “highs”, and extremely low “lows.” ANYTHING but to “crash on the rocks of mediocrity.” I figured that, since I am an extraordinarily “tough” individual, I could handle it, and my legacy would be comprised of only that which could be described as “intense.” After four days in a psychiatric ward (a.k.a. “looney bin,” a.k.a. “cuckoo’s nest”) it has dawned on me that a great deal of what I produced, while on narcotics-induced “highs,” was a bunch of manic bullshit that made little-to-no sense and, furthermore, was devastating to those who love me the most. At this point, I am no longer “5150-status” (which was the three-day “hold” on me, resulting from suicidal behavior). I am now “5250-status” (which means that the “hold” has been extended to 14 days, for the exact same reasons). I’m not getting out of this “insane asylum” any time in the immediate future, so, I’m going to learn as much from the experience as possible. So far, I’ve figured out that I did a great deal of damage to my brain by abusing drugs and, now that they’ve all worn off, I’m facing the consequences. I suppose it is an ironic “eye for an eye” situation that I am in, coping with the lowest “lows” that I’ve ever experienced-as a form of punishment for the emotional distress that I have put my loved ones through with the self-destructive behavior that led me here.

I already know that I will be handing these pages over to my beautiful assistant, Jen Moore, during our next visitation, and instructing her to share them with as many people as possible on the Internet (rather than try to sell a “juicy” story to the tabloid press for profit). I hope that I haven’t disappointed too many of my fans. Actually, ya know what? Anyone that is disappointed by any of these words really doesn’t matter to me. I’ve harmed myself to no end for those people (at the expense of my loved ones), and look where it got me.

Now, what do I have to add? The research I did into the immortality of the soul, the end of life in our current bodies, and the 4th dimension, was, by no means a bunch of bullshit. I could stand before you all and say very similar words to the ones I say in the following clip, it’s just that I happened to be under the influence of a very dangerous amount of drugs when it was filmed:

Remember, everyone, “Be real careful, don’t misbehave…That’s all you gotta know to be saved…” -me

I Love You All, Steve-O

P.S. I’m really in the looney bin, but I think it was TJ that read my mind. Is that right, are you TJ? Maybe I’m wrong…

Jackass star Steve-O, in an email to his friends.

If there’s a good reason for me to run this email and give this guy more attention, it’s this: This life — the life that this guy was living — is not what it seems. It is not all crazy fun and good times and carefree shenanigans. There’s a lot of darkness behind the facade. There’s nothing free and wonderful and exciting about a self-destructing drug addiction, no matter how much money and celebrity you manage to garner in the process of exploiting your own disease.

To put it simply: Don’t try this at home.

8 CommentsLeave a comment

  • May I speak for all of us when I say “who cares” about this pile of wasted skin cells?

  • I admit I had to look this guy up to see why he was even famous and when I read about him I thought “What a waste of skin.” But in this post he sounds pretty intelligent and actually sincere, like he’s honestly learning a lesson. So –good for him. I hope he gets better and does something with his life.

  • I just pray that he can recover and get his shit together. It’s hard put on a facade that everything is fine and you’re having a blast when you’re crumbling inside. Where there’s a will there’s a way. You can do it Steve-O!

  • I get what he is going through – the highs and lows…searching for an answer. I hope he gets better, gets on some meds that can help. Drugs, alcohol, crazy behavior are all just a way to speed up self destruction when you don’t give a shit about yourself. We often forget about the damage it does to others because we are so self absorbed in our own lives. My best to Steve-O!

  • I love you stephen..May God bless you and help you through this time in your life. Remember He is as close to you as your hand, and He, your friends and family love you unconditionally sweetie. Day to day is all you can do. You will have an excellent life sober and healthy. I hope you find someone who truly cares and loves you for you faults and everything. You are a gorgeous, very intelligent, and sensitive person who deserves all of lifes happiness. If you ever want to talk please just email me and i’ll give you my number. Love, Dana Allen-