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Nikki McKibbin Doesn’t Blame Simon Cowell for Her Drug Addiction, But He Sure As Hell Didn’t Help

In a new interview with Us Weekly, Nikki McKibbin — who’s on the upcoming season of Celebrity Rehab — talks about the role Simon Cowell played in her downward spiral.

“I came out of Idol with a lack of self-confidence,” she says. “I think I had my first solo in school when I was 5, and I got more as I got older: That’s the biggest compliment in choir. I had never been told I wasn’t good enough. Having to hear it for so many weeks from Simon Cowell killed me inside. I couldn’t get the shit he had said to me out of my head … It drove me deeper into my depression. I wouldn’t say that this was Simon’s fault. It just added to the addict that I already was.”

She also talks about drinking while on AmIdol: “We were heavily chaperoned, but I would buy vodka and sneak it into the refrigerator on the bottom floor,” she says. “If I wasn’t too exhausted, I’d have one or two drinks.”

Nikki claims she’s still sober, and I do have to give her props for not being all like “This is American Idol’s fault!” She’s owning up to her own addictions, and I respect that way more than all of the celebs who want to blame their drug and alcohol problems on something else.

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  • The shirt she has on in this pic came from walmart…. i know because i had the same one when i was 13

  • Well I think we all have problems of are own and it takes someone like nikki, to share her experiences with us and hopefully it helps others with their addictions.

  • wait isn’t her mom like a huge druggie or something? why blame others for your family problems. whatever, simon shouldn’t feel bad at all.

  • Nikki:

    If you sing for the world, then the you depends from world acceptance, If you sings and lives to GOD, then you dont care about any other comments

    Look for Jesus, who rescue a lot of people living situations as you, and now they live happy and 100% depending on him.

    Devil paid with the dead to people always.

    Jhon 3:16

    Jesus Lives!!!! and his comming back soon!!!