Nicole Scherzinger is a beautiful woman with a solid career, so a lot of people probably assume that she’s got the perfect life. While things may be great for Nicole now, it wasn’t always that way, and in a new interview with Cosmopolitan UK, she opened up about the fact that she used to suffer from bulimia and that the illness threatened to take over her life.
Opening up about her brave escape from dark times, she spoke to Cosmo fighting back tears about the punishing eating disorder that almost stole her twenties. “Thinking about it I try not to well up… It is such a horrible paralysing disease and it was such a dark time for me. That’s why I can empathise so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren’t nice to themselves. It robs you of living your life. But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever. I did it and that’s why it’s so important for me to share my story. I felt so alone… but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it – do not give up because you’re so special and you’re meant for such great things.”
“I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France. I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.’ One day when you feel like you’ve reached the end, you just say, ‘I’m not doing this anymore.’ It’s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I’m never letting that happen again; you only get one life – I was 27 only once.”
Damn, that’s tough – but so good that she was able to pull herself back up and really confront this head-on. Unfortunately, when you suffer with something like an eating disorder, it’s life-long work to make sure you don’t fall back into bad habits (much like substance abusers, I suppose). Here’s hoping she keeps healthy – sounds like she’s in a good place.