Demi Lovato (who I think could possibly be the solution to the Blind Item that was posted last night) recently did an interview with the Daily Mail’s You magazine, where she talked about what caused her downward spiral that eventually landed her in rehab, and how she felt she was “born” with an eating disorder.
Demi on putting up the front that everything was okay for so long:
“I had been very upset and depressed for a while, but I could never say I needed help. I definitely have more confidence than I did a year ago.”
Demi admitted that she had an eating disorder and a cutting addiction for years, which was only compounded by the stressors of fame:
“I was totally shameful and confused and upset. I was so embarrassed. I didn’t just have to pay the consequences in front of the people around me, but in front of the entire world. I came clean after I hit the girl. Before that happened my mum didn’t know exactly how serious it all was. She said, ‘Why did you do this?’ I said, ‘Because I’m exhausted’ and she had to wake up and see that I needed help. My mum was so worried. She didn’t want to believe that her daughter was so sick.”
Demi on using her voice to better her circumstances and help those who may be suffering the same issues – and religion, too:
“I know that I have a voice and can use it for good or bad. It’s a gift from God. I knew I could share my experience and be of service or not tell anybody and be like the rest of Hollywood and hide my secrets. [But] I didn’t want to do that.”
On her dangerous dependency on food and how it affected her life:
“I think I was born with an eating disorder, because I’ve never had a relationship with food that was normal.
I remember looking in the mirror with nappies [diapers] on thinking, ‘You’re fat, change it’. I started overeating when I was about eight; I was a binge eater. I would bake a whole plate of cookies and eat them all. Then when I turned 12 I was bullied in school and they called me fat. I went from being an overeater to stopping eating and I lost about 30lb. From then on I continued undereating, but my weight plateaued. [Then] I started throwing up to lose weight.”
And finally, Demi on the “key” to a successful rehab stint:
“The key is that you have to want it. The problem with a lot of celebrities is that they go into rehab, but they don’t stay for the full amount of time. I wanted to go home after 30 days, but they told me, ‘No, you’re not better.’ I went through 14 hours of therapy every day. It wasn’t fun. There were sessions from seven in the morning until nine at night: Alcoholics Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous, Anorexics and Bulimics Anonymous and Self Mutilators Anonymous. It was constant emotional work and exhausting; by the end of the day, all you wanted to do was sleep.”
Are you listening to this, Lindsay Lohan? No? Somehow I didn’t think so.
Image courtesy of Seventeen