“My heart … my mind … are broken. I loved Michael with all my soul and I can’t imagine life without him. We had so much in common and we had such loving fun together. I was packing up my clothes to go to London for his opening when I heard the news. I still can’t believe it. I don’t want to believe it. It can’t be so. He will live in my heart forever but it’s not enough. My life feels so empty. I don’t think anyone knew how much we loved each other. The purest most giving love I’ve ever known. Oh God! I’m going to miss him. I can’t yet imagine life without him. But I guess with God’s help … I’ll learn. I keep looking at the photo he gave me of himself, which says, ‘To my true love Elizabeth, I love you forever.’ And, I will love HIM forever.”

A quote from Elizabeth Taylor, best friend of Michael Jackson.

See what happens when a major superstar (or two!) dies?  The media is completely flooded with Michael Jackson “Could It Have Been Drugs?” stories, that little else gets reported.  This is what I’ve been reduced to — stalking the Gosselin’s mail.

So, the big story today is that Jon Gosselin got a package from Olive Kids (cuter, personalized things as seen before on J&K+8) delivered via UPS and he — gasp! — wasn’t wearing his wedding band.  I guess this means it’s officially over.  The alleged affairs, separate vacations, withering looks and general silence between Jon and Kate are one thing, but when the ring comes off?  It’s cooked.

Apparently that blogger isn’t the first person to tell Fergie her music blows.  Back in 2006 when Fergie was releasing her first solo effort, Fergie’s father Patrick told her it was “The worst song that he’d ever heard in his life.”  Her reply?  “(I said) ‘Dad, I respect that, but I hope you’re wrong, because it’s my first single.’”

It seems he was wrong.  The album, The Dutchess, sold over 6 million copies.  Way to be supportive, Dad!

Lisa Marie Presley, who was married to Michael Jackson for 20 months, has taken to her blog to try and work out the emotions and feelings that she’s grappling with today.  It’s long, but heartfelt.

He Knew.

Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.

I can’t recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.

At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, “I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did.”

I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.

14 years later   I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.

A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn’t predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.

The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.

All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.

I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.

Our relationship was not “a sham” as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a “Normal life” found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.

I wanted to “save him” I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.

His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn’t know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.

At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.

He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.

When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.

Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson’s being or actions.

I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.

I was in over my head while trying.

I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.

The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.

After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.

Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.

At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.

As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.

Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.

He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.

I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.

He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.

I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.

The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.

I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.

~LMP

There’s a story that’s been out for a couple of weeks about a kid that tried to give Megan Fox a rose at the London Transformers premiere and she ignored him.  This is the picture that was captured and the kid’s face really tells the story.  That photographer needs a raise.

The public outcry over the Heartbroken Rose Kid forced Fox to respond.  According to her, she was completely unaware of his presence and didn’t intentionally snub him.

Kodak, being the enterprising little fools that they are, got involved and offered a $5,000 reward to the person who could track this boy down so that he could be reunited with Fox and properly present her with a package of Valtrex rose.  The kid was located — his name is Harvii — and he was flown from London to New York yesterday to appear on The Today Show this morning with Megan Fox and gift her with this completely overexposed rose.

Well, Michael Jackson had the unmitigated gall to die last night, thus bumping this story off The Today Show.  Harvii was put back on a plane today and is on his way home.

This.  Poor.  Child.  Oprah needs to get involved and buy this kid a car or something.

Obviously the autopsy report isn’t in yet, but many reports are coming out about Michael Jackson’s serious drug addiction.  And like all senseless and premature deaths, maybe it could have been prevented.

People is reporting that the Jackson family staged an intervention with Michael in Las Vegas.  Three of his eight siblings were present and Janet was on the phone.  They pleaded for him to get help.  Jackson became angry and denied his dependency, which is a common reaction for a confronted addict.

Obviously, you can’t help someone who won’t help themselves and the family cannot be blamed for Michael Jackson’s choices.  It’s starting to sound like he was surrounded by a lot of enablers.  A story source claimed that Jackson drank alcohol and that an aide provided him with a regimen of  “straight morphine, Demerol and opiates like Oxycontin,” as well as Xanax and Valium.

To families of addicts:  Intervene, often — relentlessly.  Never give up.

Personally, Michael Jackson obviously struggled with a lot of demons, but he was also a revolutionary genius in pop music.  A great talent is lost.