Wow. Tuesday sucked. Like, hardcore sucked. You know, I’m not a super religious person, but I’m really big on God and faith, and, as some of you might have noticed, I’ve had a really fucking hard few months. Through it all, I had full trust in God. And things started to turn around when I got Charlie. I was much happier, I had a brighter outlook on life, and I was like, “Phew, I’ve lived through the worst of it.” And then this shit happens and it just rocks you to the core. Not just because I miss little Charlie — I miss him terribly, and feel sick about how much he suffered — but because it shakes this faith I’ve clung to so dearly these past few months. I feel like I’ve been scooped out from the inside.
So I cried a lot, and leaned on some amazing friends, and then I drove up I-5 for God knows how long, just blasting the music and thinking. Along the way, I got a text from my sister: “You have over 100 comments about Charlie on your site! People love you!” and it did mean a lot. So thanks, guys.
Anyway. I’m in Canyonville, Oregon right now, and heading up to Seattle tomorrow. Not sure why or how long I’ll stay, but I have friends there — including Spiteful Lars, my ever-faithful pinch-hitter — and look forward to spending time with them.
After I posted about Charlie’s death, I got a call from a reporter in Phoenix. Apparently the pet store where I bought him — Pets Landing in Scottsdale — is infamous for selling ill animals, and authorities are currently trying to shut them down. How these people can sleep at night is a mystery to me.
Anyway, what better way to come back than with this photo of the always fabulous Alexis Arquette, hanging out in Bev Hills on Tuesday night.
so sorry to hear about your puppy. Can I suggest you never buy an animal from a pet shop again. Not only are they much more likely to get ill, they usually come from puppy farms which are utterly hideous operations. Won’t go into details but if you google puppy farms you will get a ton of information.
Sending you much love, losing a pet is so hard, especially when they’re young. Chin up Beet.
Hmm… is it just me or does Alexis Arquette bear a slight resemblance to Amy Winehouse?
On another note, I’m glad you got our messages about Charlie. We all care about you a lot and hate seeing you down. I hope things look up for you soon. And the day that Pets Landing gets shut down, we’ll all throw a party :)
Dude. Don’t google puppy farms, it’ll just make you cry more. Not to sound all cheesy, but don’t forget about Job! God was in control and knew what he was doing the whole time!
Yes, puppy mills and pet stores suck ass – unfortunately, you and Charlie could be poster children for that cause. Too many of us learn the hard way – only buy from a responsible breeder, where you can see the parents & the environment. Or rescue a nice mixed breed from a pound that does health checks. God is still with you Beet, and always will be.
Try again with another dog (hopefully not from a puppy mill) You won’t regret it. And please post about it. Your stories about Charlie were great!
It makes me feel better knowing that you have faith. I have been through some times when I honestly believe that I would not have come through, was it not for faith and the grace of God. I know when you are going through incredibly sad and hard times things don’t makes sense, but remember God does love you and is always there for you.
You seem to be an incredibly strong woman-I have no doubt you will come through this and be smiling once again.
Im so sorry that you lost Charlie, but he’s in a better place now. And although I agree with Sandi I think maybe next time you should start out smaller with I dunno, a hamster? Anyways relax, Be around your friends, and cheer up.
Well, that’s your problem. Why not adopt a dog from a shelter and help save a life instead of buying puppymill dogs…. jesus h.
People that raise these amazing creatures in the most horrible of conditions should burn in hell. They see only $ when they breed these animals.
But think about it this way with Charlie. Even though you only had him for a very brief amount of time, you gave him so much love. Had you not adopted him when you did he still would have died, but he would have died never knowing any compassion. He would have suffered alone.
In the few days you had him, he may have suffered physically, but he died in peace knowing how much he was loved.
As hard as it was for you to lose him, I think God brought you into his life for a reason.
It’s not always about quantity, it’s about quality. And you certainly made those days worth living for him.
Of all the blogs I procrastinate with, I must admit I’ve grown somewhat attached to yours, Beet. I actually found myself wondering about your poor puppy earlier this week when I wasn’t even online.
On the topic of religion, just remember: all dogs go to heaven.
Beet – I’m so sorry about Charlie – he was adorable! Don’t let this shake your faith. There was a reason. God will take care of you.
And you’ll always have us – your most loyal readers who care about you!!!
Sending you happy thoughts!
i live in scottsdale. and i have a lot of online friends too. lets sink those fuckers!
I agree with Curiously Strong…… It sucks you have to go through such a horrible ordeal but do you think it was worth it to save Charlie from the Pet Store or an even worse owner? You gave him some wonderful lovin’ time and I’m sure no matter how he felt physically, he was a happy little dog just being in your presence and knowing you were there. If there’s anything to take out of this it’s that sometimes it’s worth suffering ourselves to give someone or something a little bit of happiness if even for a short time.
Poor little Charlie. We’ve all been thinkin’ about you Beet.
There are rescues for almost any breed you might want. The less people deal with pet stores and puppy mills the better.
Hope you have an amazing time in Seattle. I know Charlie’s passing has hurt, but in times like these you need a pet, so give yourself time to mourn Charlie’s passing, but don’t shy away from adding a new member to your family. I have gone through a bad several months myself. If it weren’t for my cats and my super amazing dog, I don’t know what I would have done. Even on the days that I can scarcely drag myself out of bed, my pets are there for me, and Evil Beet gossip. Things will ALWAYS get better, especially with a pet. I am so appalled that my beloved Scottsdale is home to that pet shop where so many have happily purchased pets only to tragically lose them to defect and disease. They should be run out of town on a rail!
I’m sorry to read about Charlie. All doggies DO go to heaven.
No more pet stores, ‘kay?
You joked about taking him everywhere with you – it’s no joke – you took him out in public before he received all of his puppy shots and that made him susceptable to parvo which is why he’s now gone. That is so sad and I feel terrible for your loss but if you would have paid attention and listened to the advice that vet tech gave you, you would have saved yourself alot of heartache and money. It’s not necessarily the fault of the place you got him from – even thought they most likely dealt with somekind of puppymill – but it’s your responsibility to know not to take the little guy out before he’s received all of his puppy shots. There is a reason why they do it that way. This happens all the time because new puppy owners don’t understand how serious parvo is – they just get overly excited for thier new friends and want to show them off.
Beet, i am so sorry about Charlie. But please please please, don’t be afraid to get another puppy!! you’ll see how much it can cheer you up! So many dogs need a loving home…and you can provide one. Take care!
This is in response to Suz- Charlie did not get Parvo from the brief trips out with Beet. I f you know so much, you would know that for a pup to die as quickly as Charlie did, he had the disease when he was purchased from the pet store. Furthermore, animals from pet stores are notorious for having animals with health problems. Why do you think so many shops have $1200.00 pups discounted 2,3,4 hundred dollars? Also, did you not pay attention to the fact that the pet shop in Scottsdale has had many such complaints from other families and their sick pets? Beets only mistake is having come across that wretched place to begin with. Our support as loyal readers of the Beet is needed, not some Monday morning quarterbacking and judgement. The passing of a pet is horrible and you are not helping her sorrow!
Hey Suz, you’re an asshole. Sounds like you might have an affiliation with Pet’s Landing? While you may have a point with waiting to take the pup into public, it is overshadowed by you be as hurtful and mean as possible.
Beet, you’re a great Mommy, don’t listen to that dumb MF.
(S)he looks like a low-rent Jerry Seinfeld. I love Jerry.
Thank you Elizabeth99. Sometimes its hard to find the right ways to say stuff like this.
Suz- you’re missing the point here. If that place had been a responsible or ethical retailer they would have included the basic vaccinations in the base price of the animal or required their supplier provide those vaccinations before they put the animal out there for sale.
If you are going to sell an animal for ridiculously high prices there should be some guarentee that the consumer is getting their money’s worth.
We should do everything in our power to make it unaffordable for irresponsible breeders (PUPPY MILLS) to stay in business!
I know for fact some pet stores do this. But then again it cuts into the profit margin, which is all that most of these unethical breeders and sellers care about anyway.
Seattle is a great place to regroup. I hope you get some TLC from your peeps. On an obnoxious note…I hate it when men or rather transitioning men make better looking women than most of us can hope to. damn, dat shit ain’t right.
take care, mama.
Beet, once again I’m so sorry about Charlie. Hang in there girl, it will get better.
And Suz, seriously – Charlie did not get parvo from being taken out before getting his puppy shots. I work in a vet clinic and that is, in a word, bullshit. Yeah it’s possible but, as a another poster pointed out, giving how quickly Charlie became ill he would have had it before she got him. And it’s even more likely given that we know the background of the place that she bought Charlie from. Why on earth would you say you’re sorry and that you know it’s difficult and then in the next breath tell her she has no one to blame but herself? How is that helpful? Why choose to be deliberately hurtful just to make a point? Beet said specifically how terrible she felt about Charlie’s suffering, is that not enough for you? Why make her feel worse by telling her it was her fault? Especially when it most certainly was not. Perhaps you did it because if Beet gets another puppy you want to make sure she doesn’t take it out before it’s puppy shots. Fine, I can stand behind that (although again, I am in no way supporting the theory that that’s what gave Charlie parvo), it’s a good decision to make. But Jesus, you can suggest that plan of action in a much nicer way.
And honestly, Beet isn’t asking for opinions on why we think Charlie got parvo, all she wanted to say was thanks for the support. Maybe it’s because I’m Canadian and we’re known for our politeness but the fact that so many people honestly believe they have a right to give a person their thoughts and opinions when said person hasn’t asked them for it never fails to amaze me. I get that for the most part people do it because they’re trying to be helpful and not out of malice but still… You do get that it’s well… horrifyingly rude right?
Awwww… so sorry to hear about what happened, and how sucky life has been. It can only get better, right? Wait – I’m sure you’ve heard that before, so I guess that’s not true. I know every time I hear that I want to kick the dumbass who said it… cauz inevitably something else happens. Guess life is just sucky sometimes. Sigh. Fave song is “Somethin More” by Sugarland. Give it a listen. We’ve all been there!! xoxo
I never bought a pet from PET’s LANDING in Scottsdale but I have shopped there.. NEVER AGAIN! I’m BOYCOTTING!
i’m so sorry. i just lost my dog (of 15 years!) in march, and if i think really hard about it, i cry like a mofo.
it sucks. i know.
i’m getting my new dog on saturday. he’s 8 years old and a grossly overweight. a body of a basset hound, the head of a tiny beagle. i can’t wait. i found him on http://www.petfinder.com. if you have a couple of minutes, and a strong desire to feel badly, go through that site. there’s a lot of dogs lookin’ for some lovin’.
while i’m being a big loser and posting – love your site.
It’s funny beet, I’ve discovered your page about 2 years ago, and ever since then I’ve followed along and entered your www world every single day twice a day. You are like this friend to me, that brings my day emotional fulfillment. When something happens to you, I seem to feel it too. When your down, or sick, I feel for you. I think because I can connect with your life so well. I am truly sorry to hear about your puppy. My dog just died that I had for 12 years, and I can’t explain the pain I felt. A few months later I got a shelty puppy, from a breeder, and it helped so much with the pain. Thanks beet, for being so open and honest with us, and for being a great friend with all that you share.
Tracey
Hi there, long time reader, first time poster, but I just wanted to wish you the best after Charlie’s death. I lost a beloved cat recently, under similar circumstances (the charity organization I adopted him from was shady, and hid a lot of his health information and history), so I do sympathize. Charlie’s in a much better place now, and he’s looking at his time spent with you as the best time of his sweet little life, I promise.
Take care.
you know what’s sad? that alexis arquette is hotter than rosanna “weasel face” arquette. hee!
and suz? you should probably just STFU, mmmmkay?
@ Suz:
Charlie did not go around other dogs or to dog parks. My vet said I could take him around with me, as long as he wasn’t near other dogs. Which he wasn’t. Also: you’re an asshole.
Aw Beet. I’m sorry for for all the crap in your life, and I hope things get better soon. More than better even. Like, perfect. Good luck!
My heart goes out to you.
Get your fill of good friends and lots of hugs.
Your blog is one of my all-time faves,and has been for over a year. So it’s time I stop lurking and start supporting! Best to ya, Beet.
While you’re in Seattle you should go to the first Starbucks. That’s about as much as I can say, I’m still in shock.
Suz, can you do us a favour? Can you walk into incoming traffic?
What an uninformed, heartless piece of shit you are.
so sorry to hear about little charlie, but in consolation, he’s doing a lot better in heaven.
makes me mad though about these pet stores and dog breeders who don’t do it the right way. i hope they get them.
beet your dear puppy did not get parvo from your outings (fuck you, suz) but unfortunately you might not be able to get a new puppy if the parvo is in the ground where you live. i understand you cannot get rid of it. i wish you well, i lost a kitty cat to parvo once and never forgot her.
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