The race has begun for ownership of the Anna Nicole Smith diaries. The floor auction will take place April 14-15 in Dallas, TX, but the online auction has already begun. For sale are two diaries were written by Anna between 1992 and 1994. Smith divorced her first husband (and Daniel’s father) in February 1993, and married J. Howard Marshall in June of 1994.
It’s pretty heartbreaking to read these diaries and remember that Smith was not always the larger-than-life caricature of herself that we all remember. “Someone ran over my cat yesterday I was real sad,” she writes in 1992. “Clay came over last nite to give me some sleeping pills… I need to diet Going to try out for a movie part. Hope I get it. I could be a great actress… Everybody went crazy when I went on stage It felt so good… Paul Marciana [Guess co-chairman] sent me a package!! He’s comming to meet me on Sun. Cant wait!!…Please God let him love me!!…This could be it.” The diaries are filled with smiley faces and angry faces, depending on Smith’s mood.
She also discusses her love of her second husband, billionaire J. Howard Marshall. In 1994, she writes “My husbands very sick and weak, Theres nothing I can do I want each hour to comfort him with medicines and prayersâ€¦ When you touch him Im afraid he might breakâ€¦ Sometimes he tries to smile and give me such hope, he a fighter and I believe he can make itâ€¦If Jesus desides to take him I dont no what Iâ€™ll do. I love him so muchâ€¦ Sometimes I think of awlful things like hes going to dieâ€¦I dont think I would be stable enough to go to his funeral if he diedâ€¦ I need some support and I have noneâ€¦ I canâ€™t dare sleep cause he will pull out that breathing tube. No one else stays here but a few minutes. But im his wife and I want to be hereâ€¦ Ive cried so much I dont have any tearsâ€¦”
There are additional mentions of the struggles with pills that eventually killed her. On June 13, 1992, she writes, “Hung over!! Feel like shit! Stayed home watched movie! Took a Zandrex!” I assume that here she either is referring to Xanax, the anti-anxiety drug, or Zantrex, the weight-loss drug. Probably Xanax.
Special thanks to Celebitchy for the screen shots of the diaries.